Last night I had a dream I was this girl. I've tried very hard to look and act and think Grown Up. I've haven't given it up, ...but since this is who I am on the inside and it may take a while to teach and train her - even to tame her. I grew up in Cardston and my ward family was the Lamanite Branch and they loved me as their own family even though I had lighter skin. My Mom made me a ribbon dress so I could be like the other little girls when danced at the Pow-Wow. So when I see this picture it reminds me of my childhood. Staying here in Cardston has been so sweet, I am even right beside the temple, like I was as a child. Still, it is time for me to travel. I'm headed south, to Rexburg for a while. I think it will be fun. I miss the sun and grass and flowers and warm air. And it is usually in abundance down there. So I will see you all later. Who knows for how long. Maybe I'll be a grown -up when you see me next. Won't that be exciting!

Fire and ice

Fire and Ice

Some say the world will end in fire,

Some say in ice.

From what I've tasted of desire

I hold with those who favor fire.

But if it had to perish twice,

I think I know enough of hate

To say that for destruction ice

Is also great

And would suffice.

- Robert Frost

Love

Love bade me welcome: yet my soul drew back, guilty of dust and sin. But quick-ey'd Love, observing me grow slack from my first entrance in, drew nearer to me, sweetly questioning if I lack'd anything.
"A guest", I answer'd, "worthy to be here:"
Love said, "You shall be he".
"I, the unkind, ungrateful?! Ah, my dear, ... I cannot look on thee."
Love took my hand, and smiling did reply, " Who made the eyes but I?"
"Truth Lord, but I have marr'd them: let my shame go where it doth deserve!
"And know you not", says Love," who bore the blame? My dear, then I will serve."
"You must sit down", says Love, "and taste my meat."
So I did sit and eat. George Herbert

ferris Wheel

Rows and flows of angel hair and ice cream castles in the air and feather canyons everywhere - I've looked at clouds that way.

But now they only block the sun. They rain and snow on everyone. So many things I would have done, but clouds got in my way.

I've looked at clouds from both sides now, from up and down, and still somehow its cloud illusions I recall - I really don't know clouds at all.

Moons and Junes and ferris wheels, the dizzy dancing way you feel as evry fairy tale comes real, I've looked at love that way.

But now its just another show you leave em laughing when you go, and if you care, don't let them know -don't give yourself away!

I've looked at love from both sides now from give and take, and still somehow its love's illusions I recall, I really don't know love at all.

Tears and fears and feeling proud. To say I love you right out loud! Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, I've looked at life that way.

But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say I've changed. Well something's lost, but something's gained in living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now, from win and lose - and still somehow it's lifes illusions I recall. I really don't know life at all. - Joni Mitchell, Both Sides Now